Parting

Separation anxiety
fear of abandonment
when you leave me
I fear death

And then I want to leave you
forever
since that is how it feels
I must make myself safe

In my life I will die
yet I fear not death
here I know I will not die
yet I fear death

Anger, revenge, control
playing hopelessly with my soul
insanity is feeling so good together
but so desperate apart

I am strong
but feel as if I were weak
I know what is happening
but feel helpless

The light bulb in my head
only lights one side
the depths of darkness
keep wanting to be rescued

they do not know
the only one
who will always be there
is me