Karaoke night

I can't sing
but I can dance
if you sing for me
I'll dance for you

I always want more
and so I try so hard
to let go
of wanting, of trying

the freedom to be sexual
to say a healthy yes
instead of hiding in a corner
hiding behind my thoughts

trusting, not trusting the process
these are my friends!
she loves me, she loves to hate me
and I pretend I'm not interested

but not very well

Ground control to Major Tom
the uninhabited space I inhabit
the earth is very blue
and black at night

the sound has no color
the movement no shape
the friendship no flavor
and the lust has color, and shape, and flavor

Happy Birthday, C!