As I struggle
  Between connectedness and freedom

I view my life
  I have been hurt
  by connections
  I have been lonely
  in freedom

I need both
  I know both

They are both precious
  Two sides of one coin
  Diamond in the rough

Where next?
  Says my heart

Lost in space
  I seek connection
  Deep, solid, loving, strong

Get too close
  I run away
  I hate, I hurt, I betray,
  I feel guilty

My life as a man.

Thank God I am learning

Honolulu, September 13th, 1997.