Welcome old friend Hurts from the past Mingle with the present So attached am I Pain, intense, hurts Anger, inadequacy, shame I must, should, can't All that is wrong with the world Pain, loud in my ears moves my heart and mind easier than acceptance and love how can that be? Love lust and fear decision making under uncertainty Being wrong, evil, unsuccessful Unloved, uncared for, lost and alone Torturing myself Because it is safer Known, comforting than love