Goddess

Goddess
  you gave me the skill
  of seeing your perfection
  in my sisters

Goddess
  I sought your perfection
  and never found it
  in your sisters

Goddess
  You nurtured me at your breast
  I cannot find that nurturing
  any more

Goddess
  I came from you
  yet I am other than you
  I bring you pleasure

Goddess
  I tried to be who you wanted me to
  and the exact opposite
  nothing worked

Goddess
  You hurt me I hurt your daughters
  In an endless search for love and pleasure
  forgive me

Goddess
  You gave me guilt shame fear and pain
  love and joy and a home
  sic transit gloria mundi

Goddess
  Those who love the gods will suffer
  the miseries of Hades
  for their pride

Goddess
  you make me proud.
  your beauty
  kills me.

Honolulu, December 14th, 1999.