Goddess you gave me the skill of seeing your perfection in my sisters Goddess I sought your perfection and never found it in your sisters Goddess You nurtured me at your breast I cannot find that nurturing any more Goddess I came from you yet I am other than you I bring you pleasure Goddess I tried to be who you wanted me to and the exact opposite nothing worked Goddess You hurt me I hurt your daughters In an endless search for love and pleasure forgive me Goddess You gave me guilt shame fear and pain love and joy and a home sic transit gloria mundi Goddess Those who love the gods will suffer the miseries of Hades for their pride Goddess you make me proud. your beauty kills me.
Honolulu, December 14th, 1999.