Going Down

Why did I feel down yesterday?

Did I not get enough sunshine?
recovering from too much excitement?
Was I hungry or tired?
Was I unhappy to leave work?
or unhappy to have stayed as long as I did?
Unhappy I got mail from that colleague?
was it my out-of-control sexual feelings
for someone I cared nothing about?
was it my controlling my sexual feelings?
Was it from losing the wonderful yesterday?
was it the chemicals in my brain?
-- all natural, mind you.

Whatever it was, it fed on itself
and idleness, and emptiness
and lack of recognition
for all that's in my life.

why did I feel so much better
after getting physical?
must be the chemicals in my brain
-- all natural, mind you.