What I want

When I was young
I followed others
I was surprised and hurt
when they changed their minds

Last week you said...
Last time you did it this way
What's wrong with?

I no longer follow others
I deal with uncertainty
Painful, uncertain, without guidance

today I want, tomorrow I don't
today it seems better
all of it with no guarantees

so often stuck with questions
I am learning to take risks
but it's hard

And it's not my fault
that it's raining