Soggy day

A soggy, rainy day
Filled with rainbows and umbrellas
wet feet and a splinter
hard work and hard decisions

I love you and probably always will
but I cannot seem to be with you
being together is great
being apart terrible

I cannot see a future together
I have destructive anger in my heart
am I disappointed that you came back?
do I like taking responsibility for breaking up?

am I going to regret it like you did?
will I look back in longing when I am lonely?
how can I break up without you
feeling hurt and rejected?

And why does my heart leap
at the thought of seeing you?
Your very life is a beautiful song
mine too, but discordant from yours