here I am
feeling my feelings
an afternoon of fear
a midday of indecision
an hour of peace
many minutes of lust
desire for what is not
lost in thought
needing to explore
a season of hunger
ended by dinner
frequent tension
a need to control
an occasional love
for myself
not knowing what tomorrow will bring
the time of loneliness
and abandonment
forgetting all my friends
looking at the clock
as if it ruled my life
knowing time shrinks and expands
               as needed
and inexorably